I’ve had two abortions in the past year. The first one was decided quickly. I had been told my whole life it would be hard for me to conceive, and when I finally did we weren’t ready. I was 22 years old and me and my partner had been drinking heavily and using drugs for a while. I knew it wasn’t right for me or my potential child. Two months later I was pregnant again. I’d never felt so stupid in my life. How in the world could I have made that mistake twice. Not to say a child is a mistake but again, we weren’t fit to be parents. It’s that second abortion that haunts me so much. I feel so much shame, and think so many what if’s. All I’ve ever dreamed of is to be half the mother my mom was, and I worry every day that I gave up my only opportunity.
