Jen

Hi my name is Jen. I Had an abortion in September of 2023. I found out i was pregnant in august of 2023 just a month after my Boyfriend was released from jail. I told him the news and he was ecstatic and worried at the same time. Mind you, i had just managed to convince my parents to let him move in with us. I was two weeks away from turning 18 and he was just recently turned 20. We were too young and not ready. We were living with my family, 13 of us in total. I made the decision to terminate after a long discussion with my mom about what i wanted to do and how this could affect my future and the future of my possible kid. September 8th, just 8 days before my 18th birthday i terminated. I was only 5 weeks and 5 days so the termination went semi smoothly although i had bad stomach pain. At first when I had the abortion i didnt feel anything emotionally, i hadnt processed really, so i was fine. Fast forward a couple months and i found myself subconsciously thinking how many months i would be that day or when my baby wouldve been born etc. It is now july 21st 2024 and i still find myself thinking about it everyonce in a while. I get baby fever , think how i wouldve had a two month old, and get a bit sad and start missing a child i didnt even have. It doesnt help that my circle of friends and acquaintances are all having kids young ( around my age ) and it just makes me think what could have been