Unfortunately, I got into drugs when I was a young adult. An older gentleman literally would not leave me alone and there was crack involved and any other substance I decided to put into my trashcan body at that time of my life. I “thought” I was having fun. So sad to look back on. I had no self-worth at this time in my life.
I had one child. A beautiful little girl named Jeanette. I feel so bad for the situations I’ve put her through and thank you Jesus we are doing well now but I have put my children through a lot. This I am very aware of.
Well, long story short I ended up having sex with the older guy’s best friend who drank everyday. I did confess this to the older man and of course he suggested I have an abortion. I can remember waiting and waiting for him to get the money and being so sad that my child was growing inside of me. It disgusts me that I did this.
I think he got me a ride there and I was completely alone. That was the worst feeling of my life having my child sucked out of me. Horrible, traumatizing that no woman should have to go through. Just nasty and evil. I’m pretty sure my child was a boy. I’ve named him Johnny. That’s my boy in heaven and I pray to meet him someday.❤🙏🏼 This hurts still today😞
