My own mother pressured me to abort my first baby. It’s a really hard pain to deal with.
I was facing an unplanned pregnancy at 25 and had so many people’s opinions being thrown at me. I sought help from a few family members and their only answer was abortion. I just got fired from my job and knew I would have heavily needed family support. All I wanted to hear was one of them say “I think you’d be an amazing mother. You’ve got this.”
With too many unknowns, I was scared and got the abortion. To this day I cry for my unborn baby knowing my love would have been enough and I probably could have done it if I wasn’t so fearful. I resent my family now and feel so alone.
I’m in a better place now financially and career wise but there’s not a day that goes by that I don’t miss my baby. Makes me sick my family invalidated my pregnancy saying “it’s just a clump of cells and wasn’t a real baby.” F all of you. I feel ready to be a mother now, and part of me wants to get pregnant and not tell any of them and keep it to myself.
